Half way there

I realised this morning that we're nearly half way through 2015. At the start of the year I made a few loose New Year's resolutions. Namely to prioritise my health and get back into learning new things. I have the latter underway but the former is proving difficult for me. I am the queen of self sabbotage. I am not managing stress well. I am squashing my feeling down and soldiering on. I continue to try to be everything for everyone. And I am failing. while I try to eat clean, I keep diverging from my promise to myself. I am not sleeping well. My brain cannot be quietened. My heart feels like it is constantly fluttering with stress. I fear I am disappointing everyone.

I have multiple health issues that I am trying to address without too many medications. Side effects from meds are, in my experience, generally worse than the initial condition. As a result of excess uterine bleeding, my iron levels have dropped dangerously low. I am constantly tired and I am now suffering with associated blood pressure problems which sees me lightheaded and feeling like shit most of the time. I experience shortness of breath even when I am not exerting myself and almost constant headaches.

I am taking iron supplements but (assuming I get the menstrual bleeding under control) it is estimated that it will take at least three months for my iron levels to start to make a comeback. At the moment there are not a lot of options available to me that will maintain my fertility (something I am not quite willing to let go of emotionally).

My focus for the remainder of the year is to get back to peak health. I have adjusted my diet to incorporate more high iron foods. I am being less social to ensure I can rest more. I am working on maintaining my mental health and managing my stress with yoga and meditation. As the weather warms up I will get back into running as it provides me with great therapeutic relief.