Give the girl room to bloom

I went for a walk at lunch time. I had been in a gloomy mood all day. My morning started badly and the day just continued to go to shit. I was on the verge of losing it. I could see that if I didn't take steps to pull myself out of the doldrums I was going to do something I would really regret or sink into the pit of despair again. I do not want either.

So, I picked myself up, spoke to my beautiful children then cranked the volume up to eleven and danced, I mean walked, around the block. my current favourite song was playing and I was lost in my own little world. I took myself out of my fucked up headspace and escaped into the music. Rocking away (I am a great dancer in my own head) as I walked down the main street at lunch time I knew I looked like a fool but I did not care. Not one little bit. My sanity is worth more than disapproving looks from people I will never meet.

As I walked along, I saw a guy walking towards me. Careful to move over to the left and give him enough space on the path to pass me I was surprised when he put his arm out and stopped me. Assuming he needed directions or some such, I politely stopped and pulled out one ear piece. He had already started talking so I apologised and asked him what he was saying. He then asked me the most unusual question "Have you ever run motivational speaking sessions?". I was perplexed. I took out the other ear piece and he repeated his question. I told him I had not. He continued saying I looked like a positive person and he was sure that I had value to add to everyone in my life. Having been surrounded by negativity and insults all day I have to admit that the obvious come on was flattering. Who doesn't like being told they're hot?

Although I laughed in his face (yes, I am harsh but in my defence I am continually surprised when people hit on me), he put out his hand and introduced himself. It was in such contrast to my morning I was weak and agreed to meet him for coffee view exchanged numbers and I am well aware that I will never hear from him again but it gave me a confidence boost which is what I needed.