I recently booked my first holiday in over a decade. In mid October I will spend eight nights in a tropical resort. This is a holiday of obligation. It is not a destination I have been dreaming about going to. It is a holiday because I am run down. I am heartbroken and tired. I am severely sleep deprived and I am craving warmth.
I am trying to look at it in a positive light. It is the cheapest holiday EVER. My eight nights' accommodation and breakfasts is costing me a grand total of $321. I am going to try to cross some things off my bucket list while I am there which will be satisfying. And I am going to be warm! No numb fingers or toes for me.
I am going to have eight full days where I am free to do as I please. Apart from flights, I will not be required to be anywhere at any particular time. I will be able to eat when I am hungry, run when I want and walk everywhere. I will be able to read my book in the sunshine, paddle on the aqua sea and hike in the rainforest. I know I am travelling in the wet season and I am going to try to nap when it is rainy. I have no expectations of the trip, because it is not a lifelong dream, therefore I have no chance of being disappointed.
I have always wanted to travel but I see this as obligation with perhaps the potential for adventure. I am going to try to take things as they come. Being a natural planner, I am really struggling with that idea. But, to be honest, I am finding making decisions very difficult at the moment. So much so that I cannot decide what to do with the time that I have available. This is disturbing me greatly. One of the reasons I am going on holiday is that I will be forced to make decisions every day and I am hoping I can build some confidence with that.
I am not excited about my holiday but I am relieved for the opportunity it presents.
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