Life is defined by choice. Not red dress, black dress kind of choices but real choice. Study after school or get a job, marry or don't, have children or not. The sequence of choices lays the path for your life. Looking back you are either proud or ashamed of your choices.
I can honestly say I'm not proud of many of the choices I have made. I could've made more money if I skipped the fiver years at uni. My double degree means nothing and it took me nearly a decade after I finished to pay it off.
I should have travelled more. There's so much to see in the world.
I shouldn't have waited for all the things I wanted. I have lost so many years of my life waiting. While I know that you can't always have something straight away; I have been too patient. I think people see my kindness as weakness and they feel like they can just leave me hanging as a result. I'm not good at standing up for myself. I'm weak. I'm foolish and I get taken advantage of as a result.
Thing is, I have no idea how to change that without becoming a bitch. How do you forcefully stand up for yourself without being awful?
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