I have injured myself. Specifically my gluteus medius or piriformis (the "experts" cannot agree). It is, quite literally a pain in the arse. I cannot find comfort. It hurts to sit. It hurts to stand. There is no way I can sleep on my side and I can't sleep on my back. I miss running; I feel terrible without it. I have spent way too much money on therapy - osteo, physio and massage as well as doctor and waiting to spend hundreds on an MRI. I feel like my body is failing me.
In reality I wonder whether it has reached saturation point. I have been emotionally exhausted for the better part of a decade. I worked three very stressful jobs to support my family; moved to Melbourne and endured the greatest heartbreak ever. I have survived physical and emotional abuse and separation from my gorgeous children. I fell into a pit and have pulled myself out. I am not surprised that my nails are splitting, my hair does not grow and my muscles are fatigued.
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