There is an episode of Friends where Joey is given word of the day toilet paper. His response is a confident "Look out ladies, Joey Tribbiani's got the whole package". I have a friend, two actually, who regularly tell me they wish they were lesbians so we could hook up. They seem to forget that I like penis and am about as far removed from lesbianism as it is possible to be. Anyhoo... I have digressed. My point is thus; there are (scant and scattered) days when I think they might be right. There is little I cannot do. When asked I used to respond with "pee standing up" but I've since managed to cross that off the list of things I cannot do. I am not a great singer (but I don't let they stop me).
I was chatting to a friend tonight and I had to see his point. I'm pretty amenable to learning new things and I am not averse to doing "manly" jobs. I may not have big breasts or the voice of an angel but I do alright. I'm finding that I don't detest myself with as much vigor as I once did and I am okay if people don't like me. Whet matters is that I like me. I am comfortable on my own. I would like someone to share it with but not at the expense of my morale or values. I will hold true to me first. No one is to use me as a doormat again.
I think people can see the shift, too. I don't need anyone in my life. There are plenty of people I want as a part of my life, everyday if possible, but I don't need them. I can look after myself and if they don't like me I am sure to find someone who will. For I am pretty damn close to having the whole package and nobody's perfect so this may be as good as it gets.
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