Self care

I don't want to be alone
I don't want to be a last resort
I don't want to be a time-filler
I don't want to be an afterthought

Considering these things, my focus is on self care. I have abused my body and neglected my brain for too long.  It is time now to put myself first; to ensure that I meet my own needs for I can rely on no one.  I am forging ahead and accepting my circumstances as best I can.  I know that there will be days perhaps even weeks when things unravel or fall apart completely but I am going to try to equip myself as best I can.

I will strengthen my body by going to the gym. I will harden my heart with running. I will stretch myself with yoga. I will eat whole foods. I will stimulate my mind by learning a language and a musical instrument. I will write to soothe my inner child. I will breathe deeply and let go of all the toxic shit I have been carrying around. I will spend time learning to relax. I will try to sleep.

When I fail, as I inevitably will, I will pick myself up off the floor and try again for it is hard to beat a person that never gives up.