My son and I are clashing terribly lately. Regardless of what I do he's cranky at me. It's heartbreaking, frustrating and challenging. I know that I had real issues at the same age and I am trying to ensure that I provide him with all the emotional support that I can to help him through but I totally lost my shit with him today. I'm not proud of myself. In fact, it is tearing me apart. We talked at length about it afterwards and he seemed okay but it's shattered me.
I'm pretty fragile anyway but to see my children suffer just tears me to pieces. Throw your shit at me; I will find a way to cope. My children are different. I feel guilty that I lost my temper. I did not say anything I regret but I worry that I was too harsh.
I'm not a patient person. My son isn't either. In fact, we have very similar personalities which is why I find him challenging to parent. I know tomorrow will bring with it another opportunity to rectify things with him but right now my heart is aching for my boy who is struggling to articulate what's going on.
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