Knowing what you need

You'd think that someone of the downhill slide to forty would know better what they need. I keep chasing clouds and catching air. I fill my life with distractions so as to avoid facing the inevitable truth. I need to share my life with someone significant. I crave it. Living without it causes me pain. To avoid the pain I drink too much, eat poorly, don't sleep and focus on the wrong things. I'm chasing a fairytale and I am not a princess.