Despair

I am in a dark place.  My world has crumbled around me.  I have nothing to look forward to and no hope for the future.  When I try to envisage my life in a year, 5 years, 10 years there is a blank void.  I cannot begin to fathom what is in store for me.  I dare not imagine things getting better from where they are now because the thought of not reaching that point brings so much pain.  Each breath I draw is laboured.  Deliberate.  Yet I persist.  All I really want to do is give in.